Thursday, June 29, 2006
I would give the key to Jesus.
If my life were like a car,
I would give the key to Jesus.
Lord, turn on the engine,
I'll roar for you.
Drive me where you will,
I trust my life to you.
Fill mewith your Spirit's power
So that I can run,
and at the end in front of God,
I'll hear: "Great Job, Well Done."
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Class was just bleh, but it always is so it does not matter.
It was a GOOD day
First awesome thing:
I got into the UK trip. YAYEE!
It shall be fun. I am actually really looking forward to it.
Second hilarious thing:
We played a prank with Beulah's phone.
It was so very funny.
I crashed the debate CCA for like half an hour because I had to wait for Chloe.
Third Idiotic thing:
We spent English, searching for pictures of Kaka, Torres etc
It was really weird because you see this great big group of girls crowding around one computer
and uh exclaiming:
'OH MY GOSH HE IS SO HOT!'
Yes it was really funny
Fourth plain Stupid thing:
Chloe came over to do SS project,
because we found out that we could not use powerpoint
So we decided to do some photo thing with my soft toys
and like explain what fascism and marxism is.
However, we got distracted & went very very high.
Chloe Gets a Stomach Ache
Poor Becky. Chloe is one gross shiz.
Chloe and Becky get High on _______________
Just Pretent the scarecrow is
KAKA (:
BURN MY EYES
Oh yeah we are cool
Totally cool.
I always knew you were so very weird
& We were supposed to be doing our SS project :D
Syl FORGIVE US we DID finish it in the end (:
Fifth great thing:
My COUSIN IS BACK FROM SYDNEY!!!
I love him to itsy bitsy bits
He bought back not only one packet
but THREE WHOLE PACKETS
of PODS :D
Addition to the whole package,
CRISPY CREMES.
Oh yes, I am going to grow fat,
but who cares.
MY COUSIN TOTALLY ROCKS.
I was in euphoria when i saw the boxes of food.
He also brought my ipod speakers back in one piece,
but not it is loaned out again ):
I have not seen my poor speakers for a two weeks.
Becky is a happy happy child.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Today while at the super market, I saw this little eurasian looking boy.
He is so mega cute.
He was shopping with his mum.
So he was wondering around and suddenly he lost his mum.
He went around the whole veggie section going up to many people going
'You're not mum'
The ultimate was when he went up to this man and said
'You're DEFINATELY not mum!'
Ok fine I was like staring at him
Anyway when he finally found his mum he went
'YOU ARE MUM!' and proceeds to hug her.
HE IS SO MEGA CUTE.
WOOHOO
I am sorry i am weird. live with it.
Cara, my neighbour's dog hurt her foot and is limping around the neighbourhood.
Silly dog. I think she fell down the stairs during dinner.
I think i might need to help them carry her to the doctors tomorrow.
She is an insane weight of 40kg.
Anyway tomorrow is the dreaded 1st day of school.
Darn.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
I hope you enjoyed yourself today and was thoroughly surprised :D
Even though it was rather small but still it was fun.
Random cake throwing and dunking into the pool
Anyway thanks to the people who came even though it was so last minute
It was cool.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Hello Zaneta
All of us happily eating before a waterbomb was thrown from above
Sufen goes into the pool
The ones that got wet
Faith.
Macoroni & Cheese
Sadly, we had to finish it.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
It kinda hurts, it tingles.
One of the really stupid things I do, but seriously who cares.
Today was super tiring and eventful.
First I had tuition at 1130. My tuition teacher was seriously freaking out and going nuts, screaming at me for my chinese deproving. rawr.
2 met Faith, Bernice, Sufen, Prash, Xavier & Damien to watch Garfield2.
I paid 7 bucks to laugh at some lame, fat orange cat.
Now that reminds me of someone.
Anyway, we made like super alot of noise in the movie theater.
We took a bus down to Maplewoods for class party,
but Prash made us go onto the wrong bus.
We finally got there anyway.
Sat around and waiting for people to come.
Xavier cooked Macoroni and Cheese. The cheese tasted good, cant say much about the macoroni though :x
Choey's cookies were nice.
It was so stupid. They decided that I should be the first one to be dunked by two idiots
Thanks alot.
I was the only loser soul that was dunked.
Kim, Petra, Lydia and Misuzu decided to be sneaky so they dropped a water bomb from the top,
It was freaky.
Finally, Ben, Damien, Xavier and Prash got in, the sweet satisfaction of revenge.
Someone decided to declare some mini war to get everyone wet
So someone threw tissue paper in the pool.
We had to spend so much time picking up the disintegrated pieces of tissue.
That was so not a smart thing to do. Seriously.
Now my calf hurts like really randomly.
I think i pulled it falling into the pool or something which is kinda random
I got inspiration from Zaneta's room.
My room shall be slightly transformed, I hope my parents do not freak out.
You know things are so confusing now.
It does not make sense. Everything is just a blur.
What IS the point?
I really do not get it
Someone enlighten me.
Is it what you want or is what I want?
I do not understand & it is tearing me apart.
Happiness? Whats that.
It is a mirage, masking what sadness that is inside,
struggling to come out.
Dont be fooled by the plastic smiles and fake laughs.
I have come to a point where nothing seems worth it.
Someone pull me out of this insane downward spiral.
RAWR my father is so insanely unreasonable.
EVERYTHING is my fault.
Cos he is too great in this household for anything to be his fault.
It is not my fault that you delete your OWN private and confidential files from the computer.
I am the kid, i am not supposed to be cleaning up after you.
It sucks how you just BARGE into my room and demand for stuff & if i cant do it.
You go on a stupid guilt trip like how i dont take care of you.
If I had to take care of you, stop controlling my life because you cant even take care of yourself.
I cannot believe you screamed at me and gave me your stupid 'I am pissed off look'
it is not even MY FAULT. I seriously cannot stand this
Now I have to set the old computer up again, delete every single thing.
He wanted me to do it NOW.
I am such a loser, since no one is awake or willingly to talk to me
I shall rant to my blog.
Hello blog, you are such a great pal
Maybe one day I would just blend into the background and cease to exsist.
Wouldn't that be a nice fantasy to happen.
But it will never happen.
God I need you.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
I am sorry that i cannot live up to your standards
I am sorry that whatever I do cannot seem to make things right
I am sorry I am such a pain in the ass
I am sorry that I am me
If I would change it would be for you.
My feet hurt like shiz.
I walked all the way from my house to Coronation Plaza where SOMEBODY stays
Just to get swabs for my SMP thing
Now my feet have sprouted blisters like mushrooms.
That is so queer.
Went around getting swabs from alot of dogs.
Today was a Dogon day.
Rawr! My mother can be so infuriating, she did not allow me to go out with Stacey, Marissa, Jia & Jia today ):
Because she said i was going out too much and i had too much to do today, but STILL.
I feel kinda bad because it is like i have not talked to them for so long.
The injustice. Next my mother went on to critisize all of my friends like how we all play to much and never study, all that shit.
It is the frikin holidays dammit.
Let us play for 1 month before we study our heads off.
So i am grounded for like until December holidays, but i could not care less.
I am sneaking out & I can get my dad to let me go out anyway.
I sound so rebellious.
I think i should just shut up now
Sunday, June 18, 2006
My voice is so sexy and hwat now, all low and husky.
Seriously it sucks but not like I am helping myself with the many brownies, fried chicken wings, chips and milo special.
Brilliance Becky.
I cant seem to sleep even though i only had 2 hrs of sleep this morning.
I just might sleep during dinner.
Church camps always seem to pass extremely fast. Its scary.
This camp was so very slack, but i like it.
Just sit around & do absolutely nothing at all.
It was a good time to catch up with Faith and discuss some issues.
Also it helped me to get myself right with God.
I realised alot of things are really complicated and all and I have no idea what so ever on how to solve the issue.
The first day of camp me and Faith were late and it was totally my fault.
Because we went to buy my new iMac, which is totally cool
It runs a little different from Windows but it is alright i suppose.
My dad had some function, so we ended up going to camp late.
Second day we went to sentosa, it was hilarious how we were making fun of the ahlians and ahbengs.
Faith, Debbie, Bernice and I just sat around and did nothing the whole day while the others went kayaking and to play football since we were lazy, at the same time trying very hard not to get Australia and Mickey sandy.
We had a really nice worship by the beach and theme talk.
Xavier went and made a cool camp fire.
Came back at 9+ we watched Left Behind until 230am
Me and Eunice were being super weird, our reaction was super slow at the scary part but we still over reacted.
We decided we were bored after the movies so we went to walk around in the desserted carpark.
We finally slept at 430am and woke up at 630.
Today in chuch we had combined lesson with the J1s, we went in late so we had to sit right in front and I fell alseep
which was quite bad, but i could not help it.
It is the last week of the holiday ):
Everything just went by too fast for me. I cant keep up since I am slow.
I am going to spend it just catching up on work.
Thursday, June 15, 2006
I turned on my phone and got bombarded with smses, which was very scary.
Most of them relating to very urgent matters & work.
I got SMP, SS project and Camp tomorrow.
So much for being all inspired after camp to do something more.
It sometimes feels like reality is not that kind.
Life just keeps getting harder, but since when was it easy.
Its a matter of picking yourself up and moving,
against the current that threatens to push you back even more.
Things seem so superficial at times and I honestly do not know what to do about it.
I ask myself over and over again, what IS the point?
Now I am scared, the sec4s are gone.
It is suddenly like we are all alone and the big question is:
What if we fail?
Its not the fear of failing, its the fear of dissapointment.
Not living up to standard and letting everyone down.
That is what I fear. The big let down.
It feels like its the limit and I cant push myself anymore.
I sound like a stupid over achiever that wants everything in life :/
Seriously you people make me feel bad when I emo.
So I shall stop blogging about crappy depressing stuff.
Becky will be happy and stop whinning for now on until a certain period when I choose that I will start.
Which will be in the near future.
Next week is going to be one heckload busy week.
See me fall down and die.
Faith Leong is the sweetest Aunty alive, she made my day.
Yes, I love you Faith (:
Monday, June 12, 2006
There is seriously nothing to look forward to.
Just one thing after another to do and it ain't fun.
Nothing really seems worth while.
Life is like a rollar coaster you go up just to speed down.
Just let my close my eyes and when I wake up let this whole year have passed.
I spent this holiday not riding, not going to Chaing Mai, not slacking.
Its unfair.
I have always wondered what would happen if I pressed that big red button.
Saturday, June 10, 2006
This will interest my classmates
My fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
During the summer pretty much the only shoes i wear are flip flops
My favorite toy as a child were barbies
My favorite color is purple
I did Gymnastics
I love skirts
Hollister is my favorite place to shop(?)
Tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
I love chocolate
I've never had a real job
TOTAL: 2
My hair is straightened
I have at least 8 friendster pictures
I usually go shopping once a week
I love to hang out with friends
I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace
I've gone to a tanning salon
Ive gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
I have at least 10 pairs of shoes
I watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
I change my icon weekly
TOTAL: 3
I wear a shower cap
I would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic(?)
My cell phone might as well become a part of me
I wear mascara everyday
I've been or am on a diet
Bathing suits are adorable
I dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat
Big sunglasses are hott
I have gotten my nails done
I own over 10 purses
TOTAL: 2
MTV is one of my favorite channels
All i want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
I love to have other girls do my hair
I give and receive hugs from all my friends
I hate bugs, snakes, lizards, spiders
Carnivals are so fun
Summer is THE best seasonmy
Swimsuit has 2 pieces
Im waiting for my knight in shining armor
Pianists are so hot
TOTAL: 1
You write me a poem and tell me Im beautiful and Im all yours
I am self-conscious
I cry often
My car smells like vanilla
My dishes get washed more then once a week
I dont do sports
I HATE to run
I squeal when i am surprised or angry
I eat dried fruit as a snack
I love romance novels
TOTAL: 2
Drew Barrymore is so cute
I dance a lot
I usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house
I only have like 5 billion hair products
I love to get dressed up
Every part of my outfit needs to match
I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
I would love to have a photo shoot of myself
Price on clothes hardly matters
I apply lip gloss 50 times a day
TOTAL: 1
I wish i were a model
I wish i could meet Paris Hilton to slap her
I have been something that was slutty on halloween
I own Uggs ugg?
Hip Hop is the best music
I pop my collar (?)
I like to be the center of attention
Guys with Mohawks are crazy
horses are beautiful
I'd rather not pay attention in school
TOTAL: 3
Cats are adorable
I write my own music/song/lyric
I would love to visit Hawaii
Valentine's day! i like
White is better then black
I wouldn't be caught dead in all black
My closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
I hate the grunge look of a beard
I love to read gossip magazines
I love to gossip
TOTAL: 3
I had Lisa Frank folders, posters as a kid (?)
I love Celine dion
My bubble baths are 2 hr long
My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned
My friends and i are in a strict group. we mostly only hang out with each other
I like kids :D
Diet drinks are the best
Im all about being vegetarian
I refuse to eat at McDonald's
I check my friendster everyday
TOTAL: 1
I LOVE life
I have a lot of jewlery
Claires has cheap jewlery (?)
My screen names have x's in them
Either one of my friendster profile has/had <3
I would never want to be the opposite sex
It's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it (?)
I have more than 3 pillows on my bed
I have a stuffed toy sleeping beside me - hee
I love tidy and clean places
TOTAL: 2
20/100
20% girl. now that is a joke.
HAHAHA
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
I am starving it is dinner time and they decided to go out and shop before we eat dinner.
Now dinner is pushed back by 1hr causing me to be bored stiff in the hotel with nothing to eat.
Since i am not allowed to walk out of the hotel to the next building and buy a RICE BALL.
I am hungry.
Monday, June 05, 2006
I dont even know if this thing is free, but who cares. Doesnt seem like you have to pay for it.
Weird business men are walking in and out they have funny hair.
Even though it is summer here it is still super cold its around18 degrees.
Yesterday we went to Harajuku, the teenagers there dress super weirdly.
When I come back I shall upload photos. Went mad shopping there they have so much cool things.
They have this whole store dedicated to spongebob, but it was insanely expensive. So I could not get anything.
My whole family is flat out tired because they only arrived yesterday and today we are going to Disneyland.
I seriously cannot wait, going to con my little cousins into sitting the rollar coasters, not really con but force.
Just say something like "only BIG boys are brave enough to sit on these rides" and they will get onto it.
Their expressions shall be classic. The whole family will be working together to do this :D
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Funkyness.
Friday, June 02, 2006
I shall be away in Japan for the next week & I am leaving tonight.
I have not started packing :/
If I am sitting next to my cousin on the plane. I will DIE
so GOODBYE